I am just starting the strange journey of having some tumours removed from my breast. I refer to it as a strange journey because I can not figure out what the appropriate reaction to this is. First I was confused, then sad, then angry and now I just feel tired. I don't really want to discuss what is happening with me because a) I don't really want anyone to know and B) if I discuss it it makes it seem so real! I just keep thinking that if I don't talk about it and just have the surgery then I can just get back to normal. The truth is things won't be normal afterward, well I won't look and feel normal, not the way I did before the surgery. I wish their was some sort of instruction manual that I could read and just know how to feel! If there is anyone out there that has been through this I would love to hear your thoughts because I am just confused.